i almost felt all of kinds of love's happiness and "damn" broken heart...I've been betrayed, betraying, playing around, boring, dump someone, been dumped, backstreet, been dad's little sweet angel and been dad's little naughty angel... been loved (so much) but then i felt so boooorrreeedddd ,been unloved and unwanted...
intinya adalah... saia sudah banyak makan asam garam kehidupan cinta *tsaaaaaeeeelaaahhhh* dan saia merasa sudah cape...
papi pernah bilang begini "fan,pacaran mbok yah yg bener gitu... mangnya nga cape apa putus melulu?"
dalem hati gue " jiaaaaahhhhh menurut looooo??? lo aja cape ngeliatnya.. apa lagi gue??? yg ngalamin sendiri?? gue jg mau kali ketemu cowo terus langsung klop terus langsung jadi gitu sampe merit... emangnya enak sakit hati melolo?? :(("
singkat cerita nih begini... ada beberapa kisah unik dibalik berpacaran dengan mantan2 gue itu... mulai dari yang baikkkk sampe yg jahat pun ada... dan semuanya ada hikmahnya sih... makanya kenapa sampe skrg gue masi bisa bertahan begini dan semuanya bisa dijadiin pelajaran :D hehehe *lebaaayyy*
1. baruuuu aja pertama kali ngerasain yg namanya pacaran pas kelas 3 SMP.. eeehhhhhh ya elah,diselingkuhin begitu aja dong... ckckckckck keterlaluan emang... gue sebel bener sama itu orang n sampe baru mo ngomong sama itu "kadal" lagi (hahahaha gue memanggil dia begitu) after 3-4 years deh... ahhahaha dan skrg gue udah baik2 aja ma dia.. we're friends.. n kalo inget cerita itu cuma ketawa ketiwi.. cinta monyet :))
moral of the story : jangan percaya sama cowo 100% hahahaha :p
2. pacaran yg kedua kali... ni cowo bae bener ma gue... sayaaaannngggggg bener... cuma monoton aja gitu... jadinya boring :)) *nga jelas ye gue maunya apaan* hahaha tp skrg kita masi temenan juga kok :)
moral of the story : gue dodol bener.. hahaha cowo dah bae mampus begitu malah disia2in T_T hahaha so,jgn sia2kan cowo yg baik yaaaahhhh walopun sometimes dia membosankan... sebaiknya dikomunikasikan ke dia... biar dia cari cara lg biar kita nga bosen :p
3. akhirnya pas gue training, gue jadian ma "malaysian guy".. habis gue kelar masa trainingnya.. kita pacaran long distance.. alias gue di jakarta n dia di singapore.. pacaran ampir 2 taon... jiaaaaahhhhh tuh orang agak2 gelo.. masa sempet nyuruh gue milih dia apa tuhan?? ckckckckck parah parah... udah gitu dia malah selingkuh pula sama cewe thailand T____________T"
moral of the story :
- tetep berpegang sama prinsip hidup... :)
- cintailah produk dalam negri.. alias pacaran ma org luar tuh susyeeee... kendalanya banyak selain kendala dalam bahasa untuk komunikasi :p pusing boookkkk
- karma itu ada T_T " what you do that's what you'll get *bener nga sih? :p*
- Long Distance tuh nga gampang... *fiuuuhhhh*
kalo ada juaranya orang tercuek didunia.. mungkin dia akan jadi pemenangnya.. gue pernah ngatain dia "Tuhan waktu bikin elo,kayaknya lupa naro hati didalem tubuh lo.. sampe2 lo udah kayak robot.. apa2 dipikirnya pake otak" *sigh*
sampe akhirnya kita putus dan gue sempet lah berpikir mau balikan lg.. kali aja dia mau berubah and mikir... so we take our time to think.. and dia jg blg kalo dia nga bakalan pacaran dalam 1-2 taon ini... eeehhhhhh sudah ditunggu2 n diharep2... nga taunya... the one i "was" really in love, is fall in love with my "best" friend... ga nyampe 2 bulan T_T ... it felt so damnnnnnnn hurt... that was the worst thing ever happened in my life..
moral of the story :
- kadang kudu egois buat mikirin kebahagian diri sendiri.. jgn bertahan hanya karna orang lain tp kita sendiri nga happy...
- test dulu itu cowo dr awal PDKT hahaha kalo perlu sampe dia bener2 cape ngejar.. baru deh kita maju jalan... drpd dia bagusnya cuma pas PDKT doang.. n pas dah jadian bbrp lama eeeehhh malah berubah... echaaaaa deh... T_T
- don't try to change anything... even from your side or from his side... just be youself..and let him be himself as well.. karna dgn jadi diri sendiri.. hubungan tuh jadi lebih enak.. :) trust me...
- jangan menuntut pacar untuk berubah.. karna kalo dia nga bisa... nanti jadi cape sendiri.. n jadi kecewa sendiri.. mending belajar buat terima kekurangannya dia deh.. :p hehe
- jangan kita yg cinta mati 100% sama cowo.. biar mereka yg cinta 500% sama kita.. kita cinta ke dia mah 50% ajah :)) proud to be a woman ;)
- communication is number 1... even you're just say "hi" or "what are you doing right now?" it's just that simple during your busiest time :) hanya dengan ngingetin makan aja it's more than enough ^^
- walopun sedih,kecewa,keki,marah sama mereka.. tp yg skrg gue liat.. they're happy... and i can see that he's change a lot.. ya baguslah.. kalo emang berubah begitu... at least dia tau gimana cara sayang sama seseorang..n gimana rasanya dah cinta mati sama seseorang and terbukti kalo apa yg selama ini gue pernah minta ke dia itu it's a very very very normal thing in a HEALTY relationship... nga sebegitu lebaynya (seperti yg dia pernah blg ke gue) hehehe
5. disaat sedih banget ma itu kejadian, kayaknya udah sediiihhhh banget.... and i feel like i'm tired enough to search for the perfect one... but then HE send me someone.. he really love me (like i'm the one and the only girl in his life) and he needs me to be next to him like he never needed someone else before... and i feel so blessed... kadang terasa aneh sih karna dia tuh my ex primary school friend.. hahahaha... i don't even know that he was exist at that time hahaha.. :p and now he becomes the most important person in my life besides my family of course.. :D
dia pernah blg begini "Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, that's her.."
with him, i don't need to pretend to be someone else... i can be myself and it makes me feel so comfort.. :)
and now, i just hope that this feelings never come to an end... hope this feelings will last forever.. thanks for come into my life at the right time... i love you,dear.. and i always will...
moral of the story : don't judge a book buy it's cover... jangan pernah blg amit2 sama seseorang.. hahaha... :P *cuma fani sama julius yg ngerti :P*
all of this stories are based on true story of mine... walopun nga sampe 100% diceritain semuanya sih... hehehe tp yah kurang lebih itu lah yg bisa gue share hehehe :p entah itu sebuah pengalaman yg membangun atau pengalaman yg bodoh :p hehehe
semoga cerita2nya bisa membantuuuuu.... :D
